[ yeah. it's... not a great night. she just swings her legs tiredly from the stool. ]
All of that sucked. [ she curls her hand into a fist and briefly smacks it against the bar top. ] I feel so fucking helpless. All of this... we can't do anything about it. We're heroes but man, that means jack shit.
Yeah, this place has got a real screwed up version of what it means to be a hero. Forcin' us to vote someone to their death every week whether they deserve it or not, and you can't even get around it by voting for yourself.
Yeah. I voted for Double H — Hans — even though by the end there I knew he probably didn't do it. [ ... ] And was pretty sure of who actually did, at least for one of 'em.
[ yeah... he can't say hans being kind of a creep during that trial was not a factor.
he nods. ]
That's pretty much what it came down to for me. I knew if the real killer did it, there was a good reason for it and we just didn't have the story right. I wasn't willing to sacrifice someone I trust to be a decent person and support people, so I sacrificed someone I didn't really trust with that instead.
[ shakes his head. ]
Feel like a big damn hypocrite given what I've been fightin' for back home, but if we had to do it over again and we still didn't have any leads on Satan's case, I'd do the same thing.
I feel bad for Adlet... he knew that guy, and I guess maybe understood him better than us all. But...
[ she just reaches out a hand to gently put it on his arm. because yeah. yeah. ]
Everyone who voted for him should consider themselves a hypocrite... myself included. I should be the last person sentencing someone to a guilty verdict when they didn't do it.
[ he smiles a little at the touch. yeah, she probably is in a pretty similar place in this situation. ]
You and me both. At the same time, there was no good answer either. It was still gonna be sentencing someone who didn't set out to hurt anybody to death. If they'd just do lesser charges and lighter sentences when they're justified we wouldn't be in this situation.
[ ... ]
But yeah. Adlet's probably the thing I feel worst about. 'Cause I've seen how much false convictions hurt the people left behind, too. And while I may have had mixed feelings on Hans, Adlet's a good kid. Especially after suggesting him at one point last week... I really didn't wanna hurt him.
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Man, that sucked.
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All of that sucked. [ she curls her hand into a fist and briefly smacks it against the bar top. ] I feel so fucking helpless. All of this... we can't do anything about it. We're heroes but man, that means jack shit.
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Can I ask...? How'd you end up voting? Everything was so confusing...
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Yeah. I voted for Double H — Hans — even though by the end there I knew he probably didn't do it. [ ... ] And was pretty sure of who actually did, at least for one of 'em.
[ he does not!! feel great about this!!!! ]
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[ shuts her eyes. sometimes you do not have time for men who rate you and won't fucking shut their goddamn mouths. ]
I had an idea of at least one of the people who did it, and I guess I wasn't really willing to vote for 'em either...
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he nods. ]
That's pretty much what it came down to for me. I knew if the real killer did it, there was a good reason for it and we just didn't have the story right. I wasn't willing to sacrifice someone I trust to be a decent person and support people, so I sacrificed someone I didn't really trust with that instead.
[ shakes his head. ]
Feel like a big damn hypocrite given what I've been fightin' for back home, but if we had to do it over again and we still didn't have any leads on Satan's case, I'd do the same thing.
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[ she just reaches out a hand to gently put it on his arm. because yeah. yeah. ]
Everyone who voted for him should consider themselves a hypocrite... myself included. I should be the last person sentencing someone to a guilty verdict when they didn't do it.
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You and me both. At the same time, there was no good answer either. It was still gonna be sentencing someone who didn't set out to hurt anybody to death. If they'd just do lesser charges and lighter sentences when they're justified we wouldn't be in this situation.
[ ... ]
But yeah. Adlet's probably the thing I feel worst about. 'Cause I've seen how much false convictions hurt the people left behind, too. And while I may have had mixed feelings on Hans, Adlet's a good kid. Especially after suggesting him at one point last week... I really didn't wanna hurt him.
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Best thing we can do, I guess... is just be there when he needs us. It sucks, but it's all we really have control over at this point.
Feels like I went from one jail to another bigger jail with a fuckin' murder schedule.